Not so great news...

A few days ago, i heard some terrible news. A dear friend of mine committed suicide. He was the last person i saw when i left Australia, as he saw me off at the airport. I only knew him for a few months, but knowing him had a profound impact on my life. He was a great conversationalist and asked thought provoking questions that challenged me as a person to think about who i was, and who i wanted to be. He was beyond his years, and so the waste of such a young life is even more disturbing. Its a strange feeling when you learn such news. Shock and disbelief among the feelings identified, then comes the sadness as reality sinks in. Then the anger, life can be hard, but it is a gift and thus, should not be wasted. I am angry at him. I liked him a lot and valued him as a good friend, expecting him to be there when i returned to Oz. Maybe i should have been there more for him, caught up in my own little world of travel, fun and sensation seeking... But even more so, its his best friends and family who my heart goes out to now. I wish i was home now to be with them, to hug them all, get drunk and cry together.

Life is not that bad, you´ve got to be positive, optomistic. Out of every bad incident, something good will inevitably come out of it. This is how i believe the universe works. We are connected, this energy that strings everything together, always changing, being dynamic. When something bad happens, like this, it effects everything. Life will not be the same again for a lot of people, but an equilibrium must prevail and so, we work together to now embrace our friends and family, those which we love, and we must go on to live our lives a little fuller, now that one of our loved ones life is not present.

Live your dreams, don´t dream your life...

Rest In Peace Rubes xx